3 Decades 4 Years 2 Months and 5 Days

Posted: May 12, 2018 in About Me, Random Thoughts

Been gone for so long… Tried to shift my focus into something else – other things I love… and trying to make myself better.

Been through ups and downs, had my highs and lows. With each month-end, tried to check how my day ended: Did I had a happy day? Was I p*ssed? Am I frustrated? Am I about to fall asleep angry?

I tried to do something that I’ve avoided. Managed to succeed for a few months, but something happened and I’ve strayed from that goal.

It’s been more than 2 years since I last had a sip of any alcoholic drink. An achievement since I used to have a drink every evening. It’s been years since I’ve last bought a book to read. Hell, even Wattpad stories were not read or opened.

It’s just recently that I decided to go back to an old hobby. Managed to get a few projects done. But I still have some that I have yet to finish. Two years ago, I’ve gotten back to my written journals and planners – after being away for so long…

34 years and counting… I’m still too far from what I hoped to achieve. I’m still a work in progress. I’m still bound in the shadows, letting darkness gnaw at my being.

34 years and counting… I’m still battling with my self-worth and insecurities.

34 years and counting… I’m still hoping… wishing… that there’s still hope for me.

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