Posts Tagged ‘Occult’

I’m At Lost

Posted: November 20, 2011 in About Me
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Again, I’m at this phase… Thinking… At lost… 😦

And again, I’ve consulted the Tarot…  Here’s my reading:


Card 1 (Death) : How you feel about yourself now  »

Perhaps you feel that everything as you have known it is falling apart. Unexpected changes and turmoil, end of a job, end of a career, divorce or end of a relationship, recovering from a bereavement or fear of bereavement. Try not to worry too much, this time of absolute endings heralds a brand new beginning, a period of great transformation.

The Hanged Man

Card 2 (The Hanged Man) : What you most want at this moment  »

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is to have it all, why should you have to give something or someone up? Perhaps you feel a victim and that events are not going as planned. Trust that this is a passage from one phase of your life to another. If you are not sure what or who you need to give up, trust that what will be will be, and will ultimately be to your benefit.

The High Priestess

Card 3 (The High Priestess) : Your fears  »

You are feeling uneasy and insecure, something in your gut is saying ‘be careful, all is not as it seems’ – something just doesn’t feel right. If so, delay any decisions or actions until you have answered your concerns. If male this could signify a significant woman in your life being a bad influence.

The Emperor

Card 4 (The Emperor) : What is going for you  »

You are self-assured and more than capable of influencing people or events to achieve what you want. What’s more, support and guidance from your father, husband/partner or a man of significance in your life is there for the asking. Go for it!

The Moon

Card 5 (The Moon) : What is going against you  »

You are frozen with fear, lack of nerve and confused as to what it is you actually want. You are allowing all your fears and anxieties to hold you back when you should be opening your mind to new and unexpected possibilities. You do need to be careful however, as there are deceitful people around who may seem charming but are only out for their own gains. If in a clandestine affair beware, your secret may be exposed.


Card 6 (Judgement) : Outcome  »

A time for taking stock, an end to an era or phase of your life and brand new opportunities appearing. An opportunity will present itself that must not be ignored and it could have far reaching implications, changing your life for the better. You will enjoy success and enjoyment for past efforts, events will pick up a pace and the outcome will be quicker than expected.

Tarot Reading #4

Posted: November 6, 2009 in About Me
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I was lost for more than a month.  I’ve let go of my carefully laid-plans because of numerous delays that happened.  So now I felt like I’m twice as far to my dreams than I was before…

Today, I decided to take another tarot reading… To see if I can still reach my goal despite the numerous off-tracks that happened.

Here’s what I got this time:

You will improve a very precious emotional relationship.

You will have a good balance between your actions and your thoughts. You won’t act blindly. In your projects you won’t take any decision without collecting all the information needed for their success. Your intellectual efforts will permit you to reach a great maturity of mind. You will be regarded by others as a reference for your wisdom. Your judgement will be wise and you will have all the aptitudes to efficiently manage your professional progression. A favourable destiny will constantly follow you and you will be able to use your intuition regularly. It’s obvious that, most of the times, you will be better to follow your own path rather than to be swayed by those who continually try to direct you or to influence you. Your instinct will be remarkable and you will be able to undoubtedly rely on it.

Some turbulences of character between your personality and the one of another person are to come. You will have to avoid to be intimidated by an opponent. This person is a young woman of foreign origin who has an opportunism charm and a bad emotional faith. Her temperament will be restless and her attitude towards others or even yourself will be often cynical. You will have to concentrate yourself in order to not lose patience against her. She will make repeatedly stupid accusations against you and she will seek to discredit you in the eyes of others. On the other hand, if you show up consistency and intelligence in your frustration with her, everyone will see her appalling actions and they will eventually agree to incriminate her for her perpetual and oppressive assaults on you.

You placed your confidence in a person who says himself/herself in love with you or who claims to have very sincere feelings for you. That person is unscrupulous and put on an act. His/her thoughts are nasty and his/her intentions are reproachable. He/she lies to you in a deliberate way. You have no future with that person. You must go away from him/her, because he/she will bring you torments and sufferings.

The friendship of a woman close to you will become stronger and unconditional.

It sometimes happens to you to have difficulties in love, but that doesn’t mean that you love too much. You will have to modify or revise your attitude facing your emotional ambitions and you will feel better.

You will have a financial success through good human contacts and with the respect that the others will have for you.

The knowledge you have acquired will profit you. There will be balance and harmony between your decisions and your actions. You are entering into an era of magnificence where the success will closely accompany you. Your knowledge will enable you to understand the wheels and the outcomes of some activities which you covet for a long time. You will be able to increase your possessions. There will be complicities and exchanges. The dialogues will be essential and it will enrich or consolidate your existing bonds. You will be able to find the complements to the things which are basically different and you will be able to use your creativity very intelligently. It is sure that you have carried out a long work to get there and you will be rewarded for it. Even alone, you will find the means to exercise your power, and this, very subtly.

A man who is a little younger than you will be arrested or imprisoned. You don’t know him much (or not enough), but he belongs to your entourage since some time. He is authoritarian and threatening. He has many friends of which several have criminal activities. He is an organized man, but in a strange jerked way. Most of the time he is unforeseeable and he is harmful to his community. He will be part of a quarrel and there will be moral sufferings. He will be confronted to legal authorities and he will have to face justice. His arrest or his imprisonment is imminent.

A new friendship is to come with a young woman whom you will meet and who will show a lot of familiarity towards you.

You will have to make a decision on the professional level. A new job opportunity will open to you. This new employment possibility will require a great reflection of you. There will be many details to consider. The situation will be complex. The financial aspect won’t be the main factor which will make you make your choice. You will have to be certain to make the right decision. A bad decision of you could bring you great regrets.

Coincidences of life will become more promising for you. Your happiness will be stronger and more lasting.

Hmnn.. I can’t seem to make any idea out of it.  Guess I’m still preoccupied.. big grin

My Gift

Posted: November 1, 2009 in About Me

It was something I inherited from my father’s side.

The wind whispers to me.  Things that were about to happen, things that I’m supposed to hear later.  It must be crazy to read about this but this is just one of the abilities my gift has given me.

I can see things normal people don’t see.  Some of them appears like shadow, some were almost opaque.  But what I can’t forget is how real some of them look like.  It’s as if they’re real people walking down the streets.  The only problem would be when someone or something pass through them.  It’s when you know that they’re not supposed to be here.

My inner eye’s open.  Although a part of me wanted to have this closed when I was in my teens, I’m thankful now that I did not go through that ritual.

This is my gift that I intend to use and learn it’s full potential.


Deja Vu

Posted: October 24, 2009 in About Me
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I don’t know if it’s a part of my gift.  I often have dreams that come true.  Literally.  For someone who thinks each dream has both a literal and symbolic meaning, deja vu still remains to be a mystery for me.

A few years ago, I get to dream of discussing some event proposal.  It’s choosing which supplier we should choose for an exhibit.  I was discussing it with people I don’t know.  That time, my work is all about documentation.  So I shrugged off that dream.

Last month, while busily rendering hours for my OJT, my dream came true.  We were discussing about our upcoming exhibit and were gathering proposals for booths, carpets, etc.  The conversation, the actions – it’s all what I dreamed of years ago.

I’ve experienced a lot of déjà vu already.  Up to now, I’m still figuring out if it is déjà vu per se or was it because of my gift?  Whatever it is, I just hope that one particular would never happen in real life.

Tarot Reading 3

Posted: August 22, 2009 in About Me

Got another set of tarot reading… This time, I got Reflection, Temperance, and Empress.

Scroll down to read what each card means.

Context – Reflection

Now is the time for deep introspection. Slip into a quiet place and do some soul searching. Reflection represents the time to examine yourself on deep spiritual and emotional levels. This card may also signify the need for some me time to regroup from a tring experience or loss that has left some part of you drained.

Focus – Temperance

The Temperance card represents balance. All things must be in balance for the outcome to materialize. The appearance of this card in the deck may indicate some loose ends that need to be completed so some outcome can be realized!

Outcome – Empress

The Empress is all about energy and flow and is the feminine card. A project started by the Fool is likely to come to fruition with the Empress on your side. This is a fertility card and not necessarily in the biological sense. This card provides the support and creativity to accomplish your innermost endeavor that has been on your mind.

Previous entry described what Context, Focus and Outcome is for. Read it here.



Another Tarot Reading

Posted: July 29, 2009 in About Me

A month ago, I had my first Tarot reading… (see related post here)

Earlier today, I had another reading. This time, it’s from a long lost friend… Like the previous one, this reading involves another 3 cards…


Context (left) – This card reflects the general over view of your present situation.

Focus (middle) – This card reflects a new set of circumstances that are about to or just have presented themselves to you. This is your central issue at this time.

Outcome (right) – This card reflects the outcome of the Focus Card. The results of your problems solving/decision making.

Context – The Hermit

The faint light from the Hermit’s lamp can easily be lost in the darkness unless you quiet yourself and seek it out. You need patience at this point in your life, in order to recognize your personal limitations. Take a break and take stock of the situation from the sidelines. This can be a time to finally reap the rewards from your work, or just a chance to catch your breath. Have some patience, and when you see the Hermit’s light, you will know it is time to move forward again.

Focus – Ace of Pentacles

Business and finance are in the forefront with the Ace of Pentacles, and something unexpected is on its way. Business opportunities, gifts or some other form of material abundance is about to present itself. This gift will only be the start of something larger, so make sure to keep your eye on the bigger picture. Money can not buy happiness, but right now it just might put a smile on your face.

Outcome – The Chariot

Ambition can be the driving force behind any journey, but can also be your downfall. You can’t let your ambitions blind you to what is right in front of you. When this card appears, you need to temper your enthusiasm or else your aggression to succeed will ultimately lead to failure. Channel your energy positively and make your choices with a cool head. Like the chariot driver must control his horses, you also have to rein in your own passions. A strong will can easily get out of hand.


Like the previous one, this reflects my current path. I am now threading a path towards an ambition – a future that I envisioned myself in. Hopefully, I can pass this road unscathed.



Tarot Cards and Me

Posted: June 27, 2009 in About Me
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I won’t go that much into the details of what happened to me today. But to be honest, this was a fun day for me coz I get to see my high school barkada again (except Nikki and Alda).

While there, our discussion managed to find its way to occult sciences. Well, we were into witchcraft, sorcery, magic, magick and tarot cards way back. So when Karen showed us her new tarot cards, I asked her to give me a reading.

It’s not the flashy or mystic type. It’s just a general reading with three cards. She used the “Vertigo” Tarot Cards. If I remember it right, the images was inspired by Vertigo (a comicbook story).

Here are the cards I got…

The Devil

It was supposed to say the part I’m presently acting out or showing off. From other sites, this card means the following:

Divinatory Meaning: The positive aspect of the devil is a healthy bond or commitment. If it’s drawn with the question of marriage in mind, it’s a good omen. In other cases however, the Devil is associated with lust and temptation and may mean a bondage to other things not so healthy for us such as additions, chemical abuse, drunk on power, or clinging to beliefs that do us more harm than good. There are also other kinds of bondage we can suffer from. This may be a case where we are fooling ourselves into believing something blatantly not good for us. An example might be thinking that getting drunk every night on red wine will make us live longer. If the Devil appears in your card, review the course you are on and make sure you’re not following a course more out of lower emotions such as lust, greed or desire, versus higher ones like love and altruism.


My helper, the second card came to be Death. So this second one symbolizes the end or “death” of an old way. From one site, Death means:

Divinatory Meaning: Though this card is rarely about physical death, it is about change, renewal, transformation and abandonment of that which no longer serves us such as a relationship. Like time, we cannot escape this and it is a warning that we should be paying attention to what is happening in our lives. We should take a review of our life and take note of something that may need to be shed other than our worldly body. It can also have a spiritual connotation suggesting that we have to shed old beliefs before we can take on more enlightened one. We may be heading for a spiritual impasse and may have to look at what we consume, how we feel and think. If we can, then we’re ready to take on more exotic passages into the underworld. Not all change is welcome so the negative aspect of this card can mean that we are fighting change and have become stagnant. It may mean the loss of an opportunity because we won’t walk through that open door. It may mean the loss of a lover, friend, or family member.

The Hanged Man

The third card from my reading is my Teacher. The man was hanged upside-down, with his head illuminated by a light. I was told this means deeper understanding.. or divine. From the same site where I got the first 2 meanings, this card symbolizes:

Divinatory Meaning: The hanged man is a card that relates to self-sacrifice in order to attain a higher spiritual goal. The upside down position can reflect that this person is an outcast of society and tends to follow his or her own inner voice. The fact that the man is suspended upside down can represent a time of transition, limbo or a pause in life until something or someone is sacrificed for the greater gain of others. This card has been linked to spiritual lives such as Christ’s and the legends of Osiris where the destruction of the ego brings greater meaning and awareness to society. A negative slant on this card would represent poor health, a weakness of will, selfishness and a person who uses their self-sacrifice ways to become a martyr. It suggests patience and to watch out for paths that lead in a bad direction.

Since it was just a general reading, my friend did not go into any of it’s meaning for me… Or what it brings for me. But if I’m gonna look at my current situation, plus what happened just recently, I will get the following generalizations:

  1. I was branded as an activist at work simply because I don’t just do what’s being asked of me. I would reason out if needed. I will defend my direct reports if I deem necessary.
  2. My resigning from work means death of an old way. I have been working there for more than 4 years and now I would have to set it aside and face a different world. I would also need to learn adapting to a new life.
  3. I sacrificed my length of tenure in order to grow. Though my current job’s already stable and the issues thrown at me did not pulled me down, I have let go of it just so I can experience a new life that may have been waiting for me outside Maersk.

So there, this is one lengthy blog and I am just trying to find meaning from my tarot reading. I don’t do tarot reading as it’s costly and it needs a lot of time to learn all the cards and what they mean altogether.. Honestly, I got inspired and may add learning how to read tarot cards in my to-do list.. big grin